life is life

do eat: only what is needed for . I can't help it that we live in a piggish society where gluttony is the norn, and everyone else is constantly stuffing themselves.

-Bones are clear and pure. Fat is dirty and hangs on your bones like a parasite.

Hunger hurts, but starving works!
Starving is not pain, it's the cure.

The difference between want and need is self-control

You will come to realize that what appears today to be a sacrafice will prove instead to be the greatest investment you ever made

Not eating light makes your clothes too tight

You've come too far to take orders from a cookie

Nothing tastes better than feeling thin

eat to live, but don't live to eat

Hunger is your friend and it won't betray you like food

Eat less, weigh less, fail less

what doesn’t kill me, makes me stronger

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

  i ate a few bites of cake ick, but i was happy wile i ate it...them when i was done i was angry at myself. i know what a failure right? er o well tommorrows another day my fat failure phase will end soon and I will be beautiful and thin again i did manage 500 situps yay! that was a major challange because i sprained my left hip joint in dance today, i can barely walk but it will heal. and i bindged on a bannana, a gram cracker and a bit of popcorn! ah I wish my mom would stop putting it on the counter so its the first thing I see after eating nothing till about 6! I got off track but mycontrol is coming back yay! i wish i could fast but its hard being under ana watch! o well if anyone can tell me some tips to take the food out of my system with out throwing up let me know, it'd would be greatly appreciated!
remember the pain is worth the beauty!

  I AM A FAILURE! MY GOD!I WAS DOING SO GOOD TILL DINNER! GOD AM I A FUCK UP! FATTER AND FATTER! UGH! I AM NOT EATING OVER 100 CALORIES TOMMORROW, NONE IF I CAN PULL IT OFF!.... sorry im angry at myself all i had today till dinner was half an apple i was so proud of my control, but i ate dinner a tiny bit of pasta ok i can handle that then my mom pills out corn muffinsi try to resist but my mom makes me remember how much i love them and comments how thin i am..so i eat one (170 cals ick) then i had a 3 strawberries and a gram cracker and a handful of popcorn OMG! I lost 4 pounds in the last 2 days i probally gained it back i was 96 this morning......i need to get back on track but its hard when im getting lectures and threats from my suspicious friends. my friend forcefed me 2 cookies this morning (160 cals)
so that adds up to about 500-600 calories! i am so ashamed! any fasting tips please? i will be 90 pounds by next monday

owww my ribs are bruised......o well pain is a small price for perfection
ah i wanna binge god the hunger pains!
....nothing tastes as good as thin feels...rember that
im gunna stop rambeling now and study my script love all! 

 ok today i ate very little im proud to say i stayed under 500 cals ^_^ yay! ill be down to 90lbs in no time 7 pounds to go ^_^ im gunna run a mile and do 100 picking daisies (hurt like a bitch, but burn fat really well)  people are getting worried about me though im gunna have to be more careful with my not eating ah! its so hard to achieve perfection when living with your obsessive parents and having anti-ana friends. haha my legs gave out today at school, not cool gunna have to find a way to fix that rehersal went well almost off book for act 1 scene 1 yay at least my director isnt getting suspicious!

you make fun of me for my obsessions
well here are some of my confessions
I hate to eat it makes me sad
I count it all I must be mad
weigh myself day in and day out
look in the mirror what am i about?
You make fun of me for my obsessions
well here are some of my confessions
flush it out like a psycho
am I thin enough yet?...no
I dont want help as you can see
I have to be thinner, let me be
you make fun of me for my obsessions
well here are some of my confessions
always dizzy seeing two
slipping further, I love you
my friend ana, controls my life
shes as heartless and cold as a knife.
dont make fun of me for my obsessions
just understand my confessions...

 

with the family all weekend they made me eat junk food im still hiing my ana so ya goin wellish but im going a water fast